第三十二章 一篇写给陆景的告白(2/2)

I have spread my dreams under your feet,

我并不相信,也不向往,能够像爱生命一样的爱一个人。与我而言,这漫长的生命本就只是毫无意义的痛苦与煎熬。可在那时,在被触动的那一刻,我意识到,如果爱上一个人时,能够意识到自己还可以热爱生命,如果可以像爱那个人一样,重新燃起热爱生命的愿望,该是多么值得庆幸啊。

But I, being poor, have only my dreams;

I would spread the cloths under your feet:

或许,在现在的某一刻,我也正在希望着,这一辈子是不是可以再长一点呢。让时间长到,我开始愿意去感知生命的存在,让我可以慢慢的走向你,然后去记住每一天每一秒在你身上留下的痕迹与变化。或许这样的话,即便是某一天分别,那些关于你的每一条渐渐加深的皱纹,和每一缕青发变白的全部记忆,都将带着我抱有生命仍可以继续的勇气。

The blue and the dim and the dark cloths

我一直很喜欢叶芝的这首诗《He wishes for the cloths of heaven》,想在这里,将它也同样赠与你,作为结语。

学着爱你的 沐晓

Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

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of night and light and the half-light,

Enwrought with golden and silver light,

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,

浪漫。

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